everything i thought was just an illusion

love can be magic, but magic can sometimes just be an illusion

what i thought was all wrong

*clap clap*
i passed the interview for digi ...
gonna meet the clients n attend the trainin frm 3pm-6pm today...
after tat going to jung han's birthday steamboat party...
it's been a long time since i've catched up with old friends like these..

wonder if i can find the place at kelana jaya - - sighhh ~~
i want to be kept busy ~ as its my holidays ! n im going to start work at december...
my weekends will be gone ~~
n wads worst ! i have to work on my birthday ! GRRRRRR

there are many things in life that i would do differently if everything can be done once more
but, nothing will be the same again... what's done is done, just cant cry over spilt milk
but think what went wrong, and change myself for the better

i hope to be a better person ~
with more self confidence, more understanding, more tolerating
and not always being angry or angry over small stuff.
n maybe being more polite XD hahaha....
and have a routine everyday to keep my time managed.
i really think time management is crucial, dont wanna waste my life sleeping away or doing nothing
might be doing exercises time by time now..
expand my social circle, to know more friends n understand more about humans.
well, when u listen to someone's story u eventually learn from their mistakes too.
not all, but partially. because, u never try u never know. but at least, there's someone that had fallen that told u there's a trap there...

not going to have anymore relationships at the moment...
i dont think im prepared for it...
i dont have enough self confidence, or think im good enough for that...
maybe after my self help and deeppp thinking after sometime...
then i will b ready ^^"

wheter will u be in my next relationship, i did love u with my whole heart...

i need self confidence !

我不难过



又站在你家的门口
我们重复沉默
这样子单方面的守候
还能多久
终于你开口向我诉说她有多温柔
虽然你还握着我的手
但我已不在你心中
我真的懂
你不是喜新厌旧
是我没有
陪在你身边
当你寂寞时候
别再看着我
说着你爱过
别太伤痛
我不难过
这不算什么
只是为什么眼泪会流
我也不懂
就让我走
让我开始享受自由
回忆很多
你的影子也会充满我生活
我并不懦弱
你比谁都懂
虽然寂寞
这会是我
最后的宽容
抱紧我
再抱紧我
这一份感动
请你让我留在胸口
别再说是你的错
爱到了尽头
是非对错
就让它随风
忘了所有
过得比你快活
不要再说
或许这是最好的结果
现在分手
总好过你不爱我一拖再拖
松开你的手
离开你左右
我向前走
这会是我
真正的解脱

sorry, but it's too late to apologize

I'm holding on your rope,
Got me ten feet off the ground
I'm hearin what you say but I just can't make a sound
You tell me that you need me
Then you go and cut me down, but wait
You tell me that you're sorry
Didn't think I'd turn around, and say...

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

I'd take another chance, take a fall
Take a shot for you
And I need you like a heart needs a beat
But it's nothin new - yeah yeah
I loved you with a fire red-
Now it's turning blue, and you say...
"Sorry" like the angel heaven let me think was you
But I'm afraid...

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, yeah
I said it's too late to apologize, yeah
I'm holdin on your rope, got me ten feet off the ground...


apologize...
nice song, nice lyrics
meaningful ?

yeah hell meaningful it is

some kinda pointers the radio giv me ... by airing apologize repeatedly the past few days
its too late to apologize... everything is too late, wads done is done ...
time cannot turn back, the past cannot unwind itself, scars cannot be removed, memories are meant to be kept ...

*im not going melaka this saturday anymore*

kire's exam is finally over !!!!!!!!!!


say :
byebye to a levels
byebye to tarc
byebye to all my fellow coursemates, i will miss u all
byebye to driving everyday to setapak
byebye to amazone, blizz, prodigy and tbun where we play dota
byebye to all my lecturers
byebye to studyin at library before exam
byebye to chemistry, biology and maths

welcome stress free, relax, sleep-till-whenever-i-want LIFE !
XD XD

okay im just crapping

finally!
exams are over n im graduated


UPDATE ~ IM GOING TO MELAKA THIS SATURDAY
*CLAP CLAP*

hey guys ...
sth really funny happened today - - its nt fake
well, once i reach college.. switch off the radio.. apologize by timbaland was playing

once get in car wan bak home.. apologize by timbaland again
get in car wan fetch mom .. apologize by timbaland AGAIN !!

3 times in a row in a day - -

its too late to apologize ...

which one do u hold on to? its nvr too late, or its too late to apologize?
for me, its too late to apologize.. bcos , i blief ntg wil ever be the same again ..
once u missed it.. u've missed it ! so, pay more attention to wads happening around u, the people around u ! even little bits of thing means a lot to them, or maybe little bits of those ~ can greatly affect u , just u dunno it ! coz ur not paying attention, n letting everything pass by like its just nth at all.

do u regret that u hadnt change that stupid attitude when someone mentioned about it
and suddenly one day, u noticed, that attitude of urs had caused many misunderstandings n unwanted quarrels.

sometimes, we just take too many things for granted
n we nvr pay attention to what people says. or mayb, we only pay attention to some.
for example, if ur gf say u shouldnt talk lidat to her.. would u think its real? coz ur unhappy wif her at that moment, of coz u will think its not n argue n argue n argue
but whn ur friend says : aiyo y u talk lidat to ur gf .. bla bla bla u shouldnt, she actually just wan to .. bla bla bla..
n at that moment, "ding" u woke up n realised.. omg i did wrong ...
but wil u say sorry?
no, some of u jz keep in ur heart n acting to b strong outside...

blahh...
im just typing a random post

not refering to anyone

or maybe some.. zapalang...
n maybe myself too

listen ....

today is d 2nd last day for my 1 month freakin suffering n torturing n good for ntg n pimple causing n weight gaining n less sleeping EXAM!!!

woo la la ~ im so excited !! 2mr will b d last paper ~ bio paper 4 ~ grr.. it's hard !! i din know how to answer the questions for bio paper 5 today

feel like torturing the bio book by ripping it page by page ~muahaha im evil !!

so, we planned bout melaka trip. This friday or maybe saturday i wud b going to melaka wif my coll mates ^^ i said mayb saturday, is coz i hav this stupid trainin for my digi promoter thingy on friday ! n its untill 6pm - - grrrr~~

plan plan plan ~ how to play after my one month of suffering !

tue morning - exam
noon - sleep / shopping
night - wcg / movie

wed morning - sleep
noon - sing k + bowling / movie wif coll mates
night - wcg / movie

thu morning - sleep
noon - movie + shopping
night - maison wif coll mates

fri morning - sleep
noon - melaka / training
night - melaka / movie + shopping

wohoooo !!!! IM SO HAPPY

n whn we were planning n chui sui ing at canteen i saw this freaking cute cat !!! its really kawaii ~~ meow meow ~~



it looks lik garfield rite ? ^^

oh ya ! n yesterday i went pasar malam wif gaga- -
omg the pasar malam freaking many ppl ! n freaking long - -
walk n walk n walk for the takoyaki .. until my legs r tired sighh ~

n we bought a pair of neckalce ! well, mine is heart shape, hers is lock
n each lock comes wif a key ! muahaha... the key is still in my room ^^
gonna wear this necklace everyday although its kinda heavy


well well, i think i havent post a pic of myself since a long time ago - -
here's one .. but wif oily face n pimples n aiyaaa whatever za pa lang aso got! coz of exam stress... pif !


kawaii bohh?

teeeheee ~~ ^^


NO ?


bishhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!


XD
jz jk ^^

have a nice day everyone

guess everythin has come to an end

today is a gloomy sunday again
u know why?
because i have to sit all day at home studyin biology
sighh ~

6 more chapters to go ...
5 application chapters ! *faints*
although i really like bio

but application is freaking hard !! T-T *cry*

well, this sunday isnt as gloomy as saturday
because, i saw many pretty clothes online ^^

this is rm49, comes in 3 colours. black white n pink ! i think pink looks really sweet.... i really lurve this piece of clothe, but am stil considering coz its kinda pricy <33


this is rm35, including the singlet. 2 colours
im considering between this one ... n another one below of rm25 but oni available in grey
commentss plsssss ^^"




n i ordered a jacket ^^ white in colour



i will be working during holidays as digi promoter
for every fri, sat n sun . 10 hours per day, rm100 ! so i will get rm300 per week ~
more shopping? no! moderate shopping ... save up sum money ^^"
wahahaha.. i wonder if i can do that = =

exams r coming to an end
im glad, finally stress free life. Hope my skin condition will get better. sleeping n sleeping n sleeping, pimples pimples go away ~ ^^


❤0611想回到过去
hope that everything is as sweet as before

its saturday now
gloomy saturday...
feeling so moodless d whole day, just sitting at home.. my room, in front my laptop~

sighh.. n the sky is even gloomier than me i guess
maybe he knoes im feeling gloomy so its gloomy ~
i think i start to like the word gloomy ...

well, im gloomy coz bio is comin on monday, n there's freaking a lot of stuff to study n memorize.. i only managed to finish one chapter. Thanks to my lazyness n my stupid sick !

yeah i fell sick ! can u believe it ! When my exam is going to end.. i actually fell sick ! how gloomy can ur saturday be?

i guess it will just get gloomier n gloomier
coz im not going anywhere tonight, tomorrow morning tomorrow afternoon tomorrow night .. sighh

gloomy n gloomy n gloomyy all the way


time pass, people change, feelings change
can these all rewind
can everything be brought back once again ?

is there such thing as restart in our lives?
yea, maybe there really is.

but , are u willing to forget the past n restart?

is it really worth it? after all the things that u have seen in this period?

did i really changed? or its u that's changing
i guess, we both changed, n our relationship changed..

i dunno how it got here,
and i dunno how to move forward

i guess, we just have to be ourselves..

not trying to change anymore..



gloomy kire
on a gloomy saturday ~

wohooo
its a vr happy day for me today...
well, had a bad day yesterday, coz chem sux ! it really did sux !... i din hav enough time to finish - - leave many blank coz i skipped d questions whn i dn understand

sigh , i was so sleepy throughout d exam. Almost fell asleep when im solving entalphy change question. Slept oni 2 hours d previous night, i was dead on my bed once i reached home XD n slept for 3 hours.

Ohh La La, n i found out that prison break season 3 has been released! wohooo... so happy n thrilled! i dl-ed n watch all 8 epis yesterday - - resulting to another 5am slep ... argh! no wonder my face has so many pimples ad.

Had to get up at 11am this morning, coz going shoping at ikea wif my mom ! Im gonna hav a new set of furniture in my room. All white ! Well, before ikea.. i pulled my mom to padini concept store, coz i hav a 30% discount voucher.
ngek ngek... shopped for nearly 2 hours thr - - *faints* tried a lot a lot alot of pairs of shoes

in d end, i bought 2 pairs of shoes, a skinny jeans n a top !

<333 this shoe !!!



n the big black ribbons at d back ^^


n tis is a pair of wedges...
actualy, din wanna buy it at first coz i wanted a sandal - -
but there wasnt any nice sandals around... so i jz grabbed this one ! sexy huh


n i got a top for just rm16 !
its sweet pink.. wif a lil heart shape in front... cuteee <3


no pics of d skinny jeans ... im just too lazy to put thm on XD sowwee!!

okay, thhn we went to ikea!
i saw this really nice white wardrobe set ! u can even customize d arrangements inside
it will be a major make over for my room ! gona get new wardrobe, dressing table, study table, bed n everything ~ goshh... luckily my exam is ending next tuesday ^^



n i lik this bed, coz the frame is pretty ! my bed is gonna b bside the window. so its ok to hav a frame like this ^^ but my mom says it looks lik a hospital bed - - *swt* any comments ?


okay, thats bout it !
im gonna watch species 4 later i guess XD

prison breakkkk ~~
scofieldd!!!

男人恋爱心事

1. 男人很很容易喜欢一个女人,却不轻易深爱一个女人。

2. 男人在感情的王国里，绝对是个昏君。女人只要肯奉承，他什么都答应。

3. 男人普遍喜欢外表温柔的女子，宁愿把精力花在事业或其他地方，也不愿全用来征服女人。

4. 男人都不太重视对自己太好的女人。

5. 男人都怕女人死缠烂打，但喜欢用同样的方式来对付没追上的女人。

6. 男人的梦想之一，是拥有可以超越友谊界限的红颜知己。

7. 男人会以很理性的态度取舍爱情（这让感性挂帅的女人看不懂）：就算他感性上很爱一个人，但当他清楚她并非一个好妻子时，他会放弃她，另找合适家居生活的那一个。男人认为恋爱和结婚是两回事，很多时候，他拖延结婚，根本原因就是他认为身边的女人不是想像中的好妻子。

8. 男人对妻子的要求，可能比对恋人更低——在外型上；在性格上则更高。

9. 懂得欣赏聪明女人的男人不多，和她们在一起，男人总觉得缺乏安全感。

10. 男人公认的难以忍受的女人类型包括：喜怒无常的，挥霍无度的，不分时间地点情况口不择言的，而最受不了的是：不给男人面子，在别人面前嘲讽笑话他的。

11. 当有喜欢的女人在场时，男人会有如下表现：话多（即使平时沉默寡言）；显的聪明些；比平日慷慨；会把话题扯到得意成就上；会刻意显露平时少见的好心肠；多说一些自以为好笑的笑话引大家（其实主攻目标是那个她）发笑。

12. 在恋爱中女人喜欢说分手，男人十之八九会当真，赶紧投降。不过听多了他们也会麻木，并重新评估女人在他心中的价值。

13. 一个男人同时是大男人和小男人的化身：大男人的他，希望女人完全迁就他，令他放心；小男人的他，意识到自己懦弱无能的一面，犹豫不决。说穿了，他们很多都是妒忌心重的小器鬼，又像孩子般容易被哄骗。

14. 男人追求女人的时候愿意割舍一切自由，追到了越来越感到自由的重要性。

15. 男人内心隐藏着狩猎的心态，追捕，得到后就要驯服她，让她变成可以在家饲养的乖乖动物。

16. 男人都有爱当英雄的自大心态，所以很容易爱上向他诉苦的女人。

17. 男人希望身边的女人明白：带着同一个女人去所有地方，实在是一件很闷的事（或许女人也这样觉得吧，只是不好意思说），所以和其他女人适度约会，是调剂和放松，完全可以没有其他企图。

18. 两性关系中，女人需要男人告诉他，他愿意为她做任何牺牲，男人则需要女人告诉他，他很能干。

19. 男人自以为是的多情，常常是女人眼中不折不扣的薄幸。

20. 在男人心底，亲热到哪个程度，就是和女人的恋情发展到什么程度。

21. 男人每隔一段时间，就有情绪和体力跌到谷底的几天，不想见任何人（包括最喜欢的人），躲起来翻翻书，听听音乐，看看影碟或狂打电玩发泄。

22. 有过恋爱经验的男人都知道：女人是不能不“骗”的，类似于像“我永远爱你”，“我一直都会像现在这样疼你”，“什么时候需要我，一个电话我就立刻赶来”，“我以后再也不会像爱你这样去爱另一个人”这种话都是必须要说，但永远坚持不了的“骗话”，谁让女人这么爱听呢？！

23. 女人主动示爱，对男人来说，唯一的损失就是缩短了那段朦朦胧胧，若有若无的浪漫日子。

24. 一个男人可以同时爱上两个女人，但究竟喜欢哪个多一点，他多半分不清楚。

25. 想完全了解一个男人，最好别做他的恋人，而做他的好朋友。



最重要的,男人一辈子最爱的,就只有一个.

❤爱情就像放风筝,拉得太紧就会断,放得太松就会飞,但有谁不希望有贴身的另一半呢?❤
我很矛盾

guess im going to hav depression - -

nightmares are coming bak again
same dream, same person, same result ....

do u think im exagratting? << or watever spelling
well, im not =.=

i cant even bare to listen to that song,
coz i will either cry or i will go really emo ...

maybe u think its a small problem that i cant overcome n its my own problem
but its not ...

just let it be then since nobody wanna care about it

btw, i luv jay's new album so much !

its sad enough ....

n true ,

wo bu pei ~
cai hong ~


one of my friend said, that everything is based on my thinking...
everything is in my mind

yea i agree, i think vr negatively ...
i think for the worst that's going to happen

maybe it's why im like this,
my emotions change lik the weather

i can be vr nice n vr happy at a second upon thinking how lucky i am
but b vr sad n quiet the next upon thinking what had happened b4
忽冷忽热， 就是在放开与挽留的边缘挣扎着
sad huh ?

im afraid of being too dependant 依赖
because, i will care more n i will be more emo whn i m dependant to someone

依赖是我们的阻碍,
知道不能太依赖..我舍不得离开

this morning i woke up
n went for an interview at acer... bla bla bla ~ okay finish story!

the exciting part comes now =P
i went online window shopping as usual
but OMG i saw some freaking kawaii shoes!! i mean really super kawaii ! kawaiiness

be prepared ~ these are the 3 pairs i adore the most ~ ❤



super cuteness lolita shoe !
looks lik princess feel rite?
lurvee it ~





this one...
think it looks real classy n sexy in red !
wohooo ~





two of my fav things in a shoe
pink + ribbon ...
teach me hw to resist !

i keep looking at the shoes since morning to now
dies *

u know why?
COZ NONE OF THESE SHOES HAVE MY SIZE
arghhh!!!
dunno hw to express my feelings
guess u aso fel vr za dou rite
ishhhhhh ! tell me why tell me why tell me why !

im going to shop whole day at sg wang n timesquare to find my shoes !

i think the 2nd n 3rd pair r easy to find, but the first one ... hmmm
so if any of u guys saw my lovely shoe pls lemme kno kay?
thanks a bunch !

oh yea , i finished my gan yan gin series...
ahaha, the ending is err - - dunno i dun like it at all XD
doesnt look like an ending anyway
well, time to start studyin again
sigh !

wishing for exams to end soon ... so i can shake my legs n relax everyday at home
muahaha! not forgetting online windows shopping too

loving someone

要怎样才好呢？

把他留在我身边，虽然是互相喜欢。。
但不并非最快乐的一段恋情。。

放开他一定能找到更好的。。。
更快乐的
更适合的

是不是该放手了？
还是就这样自私的继续下去？

有时候，真的不忍心再看到这样子。。
忽冷忽热， 就是在放开与挽留的边缘挣扎着。。
但是，没有人会明白

还真的很烦。。

还是，顺其自然？

really emotional lately
dunno why aso ....
mayb its the stress of exams
or maybe hormones?
blaa~ i dunno... jz kno im emo n bad mood alwiz

some lil tiny winny stuff can irritate me easily - -
so i think my poor bf wil hav a hard time going through all this !XD

today, so sien until i go biao house sien thr !
sien til lay flat on d bed dunno do wad - - zzzZZzZ sien jor XD

thn he chatting wif his gf on d phone
lalala .. so dam sweet oooo !!
talk sooooooo soft...
i think his gf is tired, so he kep say .. u go slep first la i help u pass mission ok ? tired ad lar , go sleep lar ... keep on repeat

my god ~ i wannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn asoooooooo !
dear.... can b gentle a bit r not... tam ha me won die d ma =P blerkkk ~
but nvm , i still love u ....

i think everything is back to normal again
izit a good sign ?
i think sometimes i really think so much stuff
theres just too many probabilities in my head
maybe theres sth bhind all this? maybe he doesnt thinks lidat? maybe he just doing it for the sake of it ? omg... al these possibilities r driving me mad ...

i really miss those moments when it just started
when u tell me everyday tat u feel really happy with me
n telling me u really fall for me deeply

sigh, wonder if i will ever hear it again ...
things change after a period of time

maybe we both have different perception towards this relationship when we just started...
when it gets longer, things changed

i wish time will freeze
n bring back the sweetest moments we have ....
i love u dear

hoping for things to get better
praying that im not hoping for nothing

yesterday night went to ruumss
not bad lar ... but first time get drunk - -
okay ! i officially admit im drunk yesterday night ~
lolx ! but that was when i going home that time ...
not in d club - - im still awake ok!! blek ~
sad , no pics taken..coz my hp no flash.. sigh
but doesnt matter, i stil lurve it coz its pink ! keke

the feelin of drunk is horrible - -
im not really drunk
but fel lik vomitting n headache
goshh ~ hang over !

blaaaa~ they r heading down to maison tonight
siao ! no energy lolx !!

such a boring friday night, nothing to do tonight
no plans, everyone's going for dota
sigh, im getting sucks at dota... so i dn really feel lik joining them

this afternoon dear come to my house n da bao tong sui for me !
thanks dear ... n thn he cook maggie mee wa ha ha hah a!!
well, here's some pics of the great chef in making


cooking the maggie mee ~~




maggie done !
smells yummy ~ curry smell ~~
yum yum !



nice to eat leerr =P



well,
thats bout today
hoping to have plans for tonight

i wana try my new socks ! grrr~

todaay whole day at home
bored till death

thn a friend of mine called me n tell me her problems wif her bf
sigh...
guys r so selfish sometimes
they dont even think of gals ... b4 saying things
just leaving them helpless lidat
goshh...
hate him !!!! grrrr....
hw can he treat a gal lidat
even worse than treating an animal..
just hate him ~
praying that things gets better for her

well i spent d whole afternoon doing mou liu things like this


nice ?
not nice ?
blaa~
i just mou liu - -

well, im so free nowadays
slacking off at home

but pretty sure i will be busy soon
coz my exams r coming again
arghh !
finish the first phase
now comes the 2nd phase

planning to watch 30 days of night later on
or go ruums !

looking forward to ruums though
XD


❤i miss the time when u tell me everyday, that u feel really happy together with me ❤

where did those moments gone ?

A big warm hug to everyone that's reading this ^^
Welcome to a part of my life !!
Hope u guys enjoy this blog....
There will b joy n sorrow in here...

Stay tuned if u can bear with it ! XD

Muahhhsss,
Kire



e m o
s w e e t
f r i e n d l y


m y b a b y d e a r
p i n k
s h o p p i n g
t r a v e l l i n g
m o v i e @ c i n e m a


liars
waiting
backstabbers
fakers


pink VAIO♥
pink ipod nano♥
pink soft toy ♥
pink flowers ♥
merry-go-round horse miniature♥
snowglobe♥
perfumesss♥
purse♥

♥d a r l i n k s♥

ga-ga
queenie
cuppacakes
carol
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